Thumbing through my art journals, I noticed the large volume of pages that represented tough emotions or moments in time for me. Seeing these pages brought a smile to my face as I reflected back on the negative emotions that I was feeling as I created the page, and then the joyous realization that in this moment that emotion is not with me.
One of my favorite things about Art Journaling is the privacy. There is a freedom that privacy brings by creating in an object than can close, like a book or a journal. Allow me to open up my journal and share a few of those private pages with you. It is my hope that by sharing these past moments in my life, that you too will embrace the unsavory in your journal.
The center panel was created after I decided to take a leap of faith into my business of Simply Art. I struggled to understand how I would get my business off the ground. As a fell into sadness thinking, “How in the world can I do this?” I realized that it was truly me simply being frightened to ask for help. You can see me represented in the swing asking the owl to give me a push.
The last panel is my internal struggle with leaving my old career behind and venturing into my business of Simply Art. I felt trapped like a fly in a spiders web with no way out, only to realize that if I escaped my current career, I might begin to free fall.
Sometimes expressing these feelings to others can seem dramatic to the listener. So, to take the pressure off myself to keep my emotions and thoughts filtered, I share them openly with my journal pages.
Your art journal doesn’t have to be full of bright scrapbook paper or cute creatures and inspiring words. You have the ability to express the ugly side of things as well. Allow yourself to release those dark thoughts, fears and doubts on paper and you may see that the heavy weight these emotions can have begin to lighten because your journal is now carrying the weight for you. I encourage everyone, if only once, to grab your journal and pile on the materials, use a piece of dark charcoal, dig hard into your paper and hold nothing back. Tell your journal how you feel and what you need most.
Below are some pictures expressing what I needed most in those moments to my journal.
Lezette Markham is a Creative Mentor, Artist & Founder of SimplyArtOC.com. She inspires all walks of life to harness their brave, creative power and rock their passion projects! You can have your own ridiculously creative, deeply satisfying and abundantly inspiring life.